Unfinished
Business
There were Cantys still living at Malingabar. There was a death
notice in the paper. George Edward Richard Canty, Centennial
Creek, Malingabar, aged 87 years. Russell had to read the notice
two or three times before he realised why the name was familiar to
him.
He hadn't read William's
letters since Cornwall. He hadn't shown them to anyone, not even
Rachel. Godfrey had mentioned them in his last letter. He wanted
to know if his cousin had found a place for them, some appropriate
institution or historical society. Russell hadn't replied. He
didn't feel he was ready to part with them.
He was reminded of Hal's
monograph of his great-grandfather. He made a note to look up the
copy in the municipal library. Russell thought it would be
interesting to read it again, find the part where the girl should
have been. He wanted to imagine her there, living flesh in a
dun-coloured landscape. He wanted to find a place for her.
In the meantime he drove
up-country for George Canty's funeral.
He arrived late (it was further than he remembered), the mourners
were gone. He walked among the graves for a while, reading the
names and dates. Many of the graves were unmarked.
He had memories of Malingabar
from camping trips taken with Hal when he was a boy. It was
neglected and forgotten, a scattered community of weathered
cottages and small acreages. Goats grazed in the street. There was
a primary school where small black children chanted rhymes, and a
general store with a petrol bowser, a relic of earlier days,
blistering in the sun. There was no hotel.
William Dyson had selected
land near here.
A man approached as he was
leaving the cemetery. He was elderly, unshaven, but dressed with
particular care in a dark loose-fitting suit. He waited while
Russell closed the gate.
'You looking for someone,
mate? A relative, maybe.'
Russell paused a moment,
considering his reply.
'I'm looking for the grave of
Polly Longstockings,' he said.
* * *
August 19 Conversation with Leon. Haven't seen him for months,
not since before we went overseas. Though he may have been at the
service, I don't remember. He didn't say. Skirted around the
subject for a few moments then asked me if there were any
'theories' about Jenna's disappearance. Kept referring to it as a
'queer business'. I asked if he'd heard the one about parallel
worlds. L. looking acutely uncomfortable. Thought I was joking but
wasn't sure. He mentioned the Burney case, listed for next month.
Hoped Jenna's absence wouldn't help the bastard get off...
August 20 No contact with Adrian. Rachel says he needs time, he's
confused. Keeps asking what the blue was over, getting nothing out
of Adrian. Thinking of that slap makes me go cold, but it's done
now. Don't want to discuss it with Rachel.
August 21 Found a pair of Jenna's shoes in the wardrobe. Can't
think how I missed them. They look old, summer sandals, red and
white straps, down at the heels. I threw them in the bin then
fished them out again. Rachel made such a fuss over the clothes.
She went to St Vinnies and bought one of the skirts. Never wears
it, I'm sure. Just being sentimental.
August 22 Rachel called, asking for money. She doesn't believe how
much Adrian can eat these days. He's started playing football or
basketball (she's not sure which). He swings on the pantry door
after tea, looking for chocolate and biscuits. She told him, your
father should be feeding you, not me. He went to his room and
sulked. He's a great sulker. Now she's upset because he's stopped
calling her nanna. He doesn't call her anything. It seems he's
given up using names altogether...
August 24 Thinking about that little piece of serpentine stone. It
was on the dressing table where I left it, covered in dust. It was
meant for Rachel, but what would she make of it now? I was almost
afraid to touch it. Perhaps it would be better in Rachel's
cabinet, an icon of sorts, to be taken out and admired by cronies
and sundry dinner guests...
* * *
He'd left his telephone number with the man at the cemetery at
Malingabar. The man had said, 'You want Luke. No one been buried
around here in eighty years, nearly, Luke don't remember. Maybe
I'll talk to him for you.'
Russell spent days waiting for
the telephone to ring. When it did it was usually Rachel wanting
to talk about Adrian. The boy seemed settled for the moment but
Rachel insisted they 'get things sorted out' by Christmas.
Russell composed conciliatory
speeches, but couldn't act. He passed the boy on the street one
evening without speaking to him. Adrian had a girl on his arm, a
skinny freckled kid of about fourteen or fifteen.
'Adrian's got a girl,' he rang
Rachel later.
'I know.'
'No one told me. No one tells
me anything.'
'I tell you things all the
time,' his mother complained. 'You never listen.'
'I don't want him fooling
around with some girl. He's got his HSC at the end of the year.
It'll ruin his concentration.'
'Don't be ridiculous,' his
mother said, and hung up.
He received an odd little letter and a photograph from the Cornish
constabulary. Some articles of women's underwear had been found on
a peninsula just north of the one where he'd last seen Jenna. The
underwear was white, Jenna's size but of a style he'd never known
her to wear.
The photograph disturbed him.
A limbless display model had been dressed in the discovered
underwear and then photographed against a clean pink wall. The
head was turned slightly to one side. He could imagine eyes,
heavy-lidded, downcast; the eyes of a coquette in a soft porn
movie.
An elaborate ensemble,
calculated, it seemed, to arouse or titillate rather than jog his
memory.
* * *
Extract from a discussion paper on Aboriginal heritage on
the North Coast prepared by the Department of Planning.
The first Europeans on the coast were cedar getters. They arrived
on the Macleay before 1835 and were cutting timber on the Richmond
by 1842 and on the Tweed in 1844. Squatting licences were taken
out on the Clarence in 1839 and by 1845 most of the valley had
been taken up.
While sometimes violent,
contact between cedar getters and Aboriginals was limited. The
arrival of the squatters was more devastating. As the flocks of
sheep competed with game for the grasslands, Aborigines attempted
to preserve their livelihood by killing sheep and shepherds. The
settlers responded by killing Aborigines, at first in retaliation,
but soon in a systematic drive to completely wipe them out.
Therefore, in the contact area of this region, there were periods
of violent confrontation. Sporadic guerilla-style warfare
continued for up to 30 years after contact, particularly on the
eastern scarp of the tablelands.
The massacre and systematic
extermination of Aborigines by settlers, aided by the Border
Police and later the Native Police, had broken the back of the
Aboriginal resistance in this region by the 1860s.
The Robertson Land Act of
1861, allowing for selection before survey, and the breaking up of
the squatters 'runs' into small farms brought intensive and
permanent contact with whites and complete dispossession of
Aboriginal land. Movement across the landscape in the traditional
sense was to become impossible...
There was no access to most of
the former hunting grounds and the game had been so reduced that
new camps had to be directed towards the only alternative food
source, the white stations and settlements. These were the first
fringe camps.
Aborigines provided cheap
labour for the white farms, as well as being exploited for their
superior skills in bushcraft (such as cutting bark for fencing and
housing or tracking stock in the bush). Their camps frequently had
to be moved as white settlement intensified and they often had to
leave land that they themselves had cleared...
In 1882 the Aborigines
Protection Board of New South Wales was established and the first
reserves were set up in the region...
Extract from a monograph on William David Dyson, selector,
1821-1901, by H. Dyson. (Unpublished MSS)
There is anecdotal evidence that around 1870 a scurrilous document
was circulated implicating Dyson in the murder of blacks at
Coggan's Punt (now Punt Lane). No copies of the account -
purportedly written (or dictated) by a surviving Aboriginal woman
- have been located. It is doubtful whether any existed. Dyson may
have fallen victim to an insidious rumour campaign (there were a
number of disputes over land ownership at the time) but if this
was so, his reputation appears to have survived untarnished...
* * *
A party of primary school children were huddled around a table
a few metres away, busy with crayons and scraps of paper. They
were drawing dinosaurs.
Russell read the passage
again.
It is doubtful whether any
existed...
He flipped through the
pages to check Hal's sources, but there was only the vaguest
reference to local historical records.
Anecdotal evidence... Hal was never one to put much credence on anecdotal
evidence. His trust was in official words and in what he could
touch and see. Anecdotal evidence suggested gossip and
deception.
'I've written a little paper
on my great-grandfather,' Russell could remember him saying. 'It's
nothing much. Just the facts, I'm only interested in the
facts.'
Russell pushed the pamphlet
back on the shelf where he'd found the glossy Department of
Planning publication. He regretted now having read it. Something
had been spoilt for him; something he'd wanted had been made to
seem foolish and sentimental.
What had mattered to Hal was
not the facts but the denial of elusive truths.
Walking away he bumped the
side of the table where the children were sitting. A small girl
shot him an accusing stare. 'I'm drawing a stegosaurus,' she
announced sternly.
Her pronunciation, he noted,
was exquisite.
* * *
September 3 Wrote to Godfrey. What happened to the copy of PL's
Account William sent his brother? Asked Godfrey to investigate.
Must have been there somewhere among his mother's effects.
Mentioned the letter and
photograph from the Cornish constabulary. Without comment. Showed
the photo to Rachel yesterday. (Why the delay?) She went quite
pale. Told her I was sure it wasn't Jenna's gear. She left the
room. I heard the bathroom door close. (Occurred to me, I've never
seen my mother cry.) She returned after about five minutes and
told me to go home. There was a smell about her, the faintest
whiff of puke.
September 5 (6am) Dreamed of her. She was crossing a field of long
brown winter grass. She was far away, waving or beckoning, trying
to catch my attention. I saw her but was afraid. The grass was
waving too, waving to and fro in the warm afternoon breeze. (Why
do I think it was afternoon?) There was such quiet, no birdsong,
no voices, traffic. Nothing. It was a place I'd never been to
before, a great empty stretch of pasture with hills all around,
thick with scrub.
Why was she waving at me? Did
she think she knew me?
I looked away. The sky over
the distant hills was the deepest blue I'd ever seen, almost
black, the green grey black of a squall coming up from the south.
There was a dusty red road leading down to a creek. It was shady
there, the grass sea-green; cattle were grazing. I unlaced my
shoes.
She was in the creek before
me, bathing. All I could see was her head and shoulders; beneath
the surface, this long dark quivering shadow.
She raised her arm again and I
waded in. I was unafraid this time, almost joyful. I swam into the
middle of the creek. The water was cold and dark and deep. It was
oddly erotic, swimming between the snaking shadows of her long
black legs...
* * *
One morning, as he was rinsing the breakfast dishes, stacking
them neatly along the drainer as Jenna had always done, the
telephone rang. It was the man he'd met in the cemetery at
Malingabar.
'Have you got something for
me?' Russell asked.
'Yes, mate.'
'You know where the grave is,
the one I'm looking for?'
'It's not in Malingabar, I
know that.'
'You've spoken to your friend.
He told you that.'
'He did.'
There was a pause in which
Russell believed he could hear echoes of old conversations
crossing the line.
'Will he talk to me?'
That same morning a letter came addressed to Jenna in a hand he
didn't recognise, and postmarked Toowoomba, Queensland. It was
from Hilary, the woman they'd met in the shabby back-street pub in
London. The letter was brief, little more than a few hurriedly
jotted notes. Hilary said she was happy to have returned to the
'country of my father', though of course there was no way that she
could stay. She thanked Jenna for having given her the Dysons'
address and wondered if she might visit before she returned to
England. 'I can't tell you how much your listening to me helped,'
she wrote finally. 'At the time I thought I could only talk to you
the way I did because I would never see you again. But I feel
differently now. Even if things had not turned out all right for
me I would forever imagine you wondering what had happened. It is
the curse of a tidy mind that makes me despair of "unfinished
business". I do like to see ends properly tied. Has it occurred to
you I may have more in common with your husband (do you remember
what you said?) than you thought..?'
Russell folded the letter and
returned it to the envelope. He would have to write to her, of
course, give her the sad news. She would not come to visit now,
not to see him. He felt a moment's unease at the reference to
himself, but let it pass. Jenna would have enjoyed a joke at his
expense; he couldn't believe it would've been cruelly meant.
Leaving the letter on the
hallstand he went upstairs and sat for a while on the bed.
Hilary's letter had caused something strange to happen, something
quite wonderful. Reading it he had been less conscious of what
Hilary had written than the place that Jenna - the living Jenna -
had taken in her thoughts at the time. It was as if her ignorance
of Jenna's death had allowed him to read the letter through
Jenna's eyes; indeed, as if it were Jenna herself reading the
letter while he peered surreptitiously over her shoulder.
All at once he was reminded of
how Rachel had gone about exorcising ghosts after his father's
death, and was ashamed that, over the last few weeks, his own
sense of loss had driven him to perform the same pitiful exorcism.
Looking around, he became anxious to find something, some small
thing that might have been precious to Jenna, and his eyes settled
on the tiny piece of serpentine stone that she'd brought back from
Cornwall to give to Rachel. He picked it up, weighed it carefully
in his hand, and for the first time was no longer afraid of it. It
hadn't been precious to Jenna in the way that he'd intended yet,
warming in his hand, it took on a significance he'd been partly
aware of all along. He realised now why he'd been so reluctant to
let it go. It had powers, powers of association that connected
with something deep inside him. Slipping it, almost without
thinking, into his pocket, he went quietly downstairs and picked
up his car keys.
The day was warm with a faint breeze coming in off the coast. Over
the ranges small clumps of dense cumulus cloud had begun to form,
though the sky to the south was clear.
He drove north along the
highway for an hour or so and then turned inland. There was little
traffic on the road, the long simmering bitumen broken just here
and there by clusters of brightly coloured cottages, the odd
hotel.
He stopped briefly at a
solitary service station to fill up with petrol. As he pulled up,
a road gang opposite threw down their shovels and moved into the
shade to drink their tea. A short distance further on the river
appeared, a slow sweeping curve of shimmering silver.
The day grew hot, the early
cloud long dissipated. Across a narrow wooden bridge he hit the
dirt.
The road climbed steadily,
frequently winding back on itself, loose edges crumbling down the
steep gullies. Away from the river, the grass was dry and sparse.
He passed through four or five different properties, rattling
across rusting iron grids, though the only evidence of roadside
grazing was a rare pat of steaming dung. Just before he arrived at
Malingabar he scattered a small herd of brahman crossing the road
to drink at a muddy dam.
His name was Luke Coneybar. He was seventy-nine years of age, and
four months. He lived about three kilometres out of Malingabar in
a three-roomed cottage built of asbestos sheets and corrugated
iron.
Luke walked with a stick which
seemed more of a handicap to him than his shaky legs. His eyes
were sharp and attentive. His wife had died the previous year, but
there was a girl, a young woman of about eighteen, the child of a
near neighbour, who came in and looked after him.
The girl's name was Penny. She
sat in the kitchen, listening to the radio while the old man
talked. Later a boy came in. He was quiet and shy and went to sit
with the girl. She reminded Russell of Clara, dark and pretty, but
without Clara's intensity. She wore tight pants and had dust in
her hair and went barefoot.
The boy plainly adored
her.
Luke was talking about his
family. He showed Russell a photograph, a group of four elderly
unsmiling women dressed in white twinsets and wearing white
sandals. Two wore headscarves and had handbags slung over their
bare arms.
'My aunts,' Luke said grimly,
'going to church.' He turned the photograph over so that Russell
could see the date: June 1952.
Russell smiled. It might have
been a photograph of some of his own dour-looking relatives,
except that their faces were black.
The girl brought some tea.
'Are you writing a book?' Luke
asked. The tea the girl had brought was hot. Luke lifted the mug
to his lips and blew cooling ripples across the surface while
Russell constructed a reply.
'I have some letters written
by my great-great-grandfather,' he said. 'His name was William
Dyson. He took up a selection not far from here. Sometime around
1866 an Aboriginal girl was placed in his care, an unusually tall
girl, for an Aboriginal. She was mute...'
He paused while Luke situated
these random details of another's past into the landscape of his
own. The old man's great unblinking eyes closed for a second.
'Of course,' Russell said,
uneasy for some reason, 'that was a long time ago...'
Luke opened his eyes
again.
'What did you say your name
was?'
'Dyson. My
great-great-grandfather was William Dyson.'
'No Dysons around these
parts,' Luke said emphatically.
'No. There were Cantys though.
William Dyson mentions a Canty who lived at Malingabar. Richard
Canty.'
The old man laughed, a little
unkindly. 'Cantys, lots of Cantys. Long time ago. Not any
more.'
'There was a funeral...'
Russell began.
Luke laughed again, and fell
silent. Russell sipped at his cooling tea. He was curious to know
why the name Canty should make the old man laugh. He thought there
might have been a feud at some time, a falling out of friends.
'Bad neighbours, were they?'
he asked.
'Who?
'The Cantys.'
'Whitefellas don't mix much
with us blackfellas,' Luke said simply.
'I see,' Russell said
'Not even poor whitefellas,'
Luke added. Russell thought he was going to laugh again, but he
only sighed.
Luke pulled out more photographs of his family. He had convinced
himself that Russell was writing a book. People often came poking
around Malingabar, he said, looking for bits of history. Then they
went away and wrote books and made a lot of money.
Russell looked carefully at
each of the photographs. He was hoping to find one of an ageing
Aboriginal woman, taller than most. He thought she might have
lived to be seventy or seventy-five, and been known to the young
Luke. The old Luke couldn't say: to a child, one adult's head
seemed much the same distance above his own as any other.
'They called her Polly
Longstockings,' Russell murmured in a voice that sounded quite
unlike his own.
Luke continued to delve among
the family snapshots: the name, that waggish allusion to the
girl's great height, meant nothing to him.
Many of the photographs were
from newspaper cuttings. They were yellow with age and had begun
to tear along the folds. Luke kept them in a chocolate box tied
with a length of twine to keep it all together.
The box was so old it was
splitting at the corners. There was a picture on the lid of
Buckingham Palace.
Presently he uncovered a small
crumpled snap of a young girl. 'That's Ruthie,' Luke said.
'Ruthie?'
'My daughter. She died.'
'I'm sorry.'
'Long time ago now. She got
knocked down by a car.' He stared at the photograph for a few
moments without speaking. It was as if he was seeing it afresh,
but from a great distance.
He passed it to Russell. The
girl was lying on a rug or blanket, apparently asleep. There was
something awkward about her position.
'When was this taken?' Russell
asked.
'After she got knocked down.
Big property man from someplace, touring with his fancy-looking
wife. They came and fetched me. Ruthie wasn't breathing too good.
The property man said he had to take her to the hospital.'
'Did he take the photo?'
Luke nodded. 'His wife, this
fancy-looking woman, she had a camera. I said, "You take a picture
of my Ruthie in case she don't come back." Blackfellas didn't own
cameras in those days.'
Russell was silent. He felt
cold and slightly nauseous as if the girl had put something in his
tea that had disagreed with him.
Luke put the snap to one
side.
'You can have a lend of it,'
he said generously. 'For your book.'
There was a place, not far from Malingabar, where a town had been;
a rumbustious mining town once, but now nothing more than a name
on maps and fading signposts: a place of ghosts and shadows.
And graves.
Luke thought this might be the
place he was looking for.
'Big blackfellas' camp there
once,' he told Russell. He could remember going there as a boy
with his father to see relatives. They rode sometimes on the
provisions cart, perched on kegs of beer, or bags of sugar and
machinery parts.
Luke's father had been a
fencer and noted tracker. He had enjoyed great local prestige and
influence.
Russell had seen photographs
of the town taken in the 1950s: a handful of tumbledown shacks and
cottages, a few miserable-looking inhabitants living off small
plots.
He asked Luke if it wasn't a
fine day for a drive.
The old man eased himself out
of his chair. He collected his stick and a battered straw hat,
hanging behind the door. It was then a little after midday, the
air hot and still.
The girl wanted to come too.
She cleared away the tea mugs and slipped on a pair of shoes. Her
boyfriend hovered behind her. He had been so quiet Russell had
forgotten he was there. His gaze now was cool and direct, slightly
hostile. He wanted to come with them but was too proud, or too
something to ask. He was waiting to be invited.
It was ten or twelve kilometres from Malingabar. A narrow concrete
causeway took them across the low river. They followed a single
rutted track where once a mail rider had brought letters and
newspapers from Europe, four months old. There was nothing at the
end of this road now except memories for old men like Luke,
witness to a century of failed dreams and speculations.
Then the gravel and dust gave
way to grass. At the bottom of a dip they were stopped by a creek
too deep for the car to ford. The banks were shaded and cool.
Russell got out and doused his
face and neck. The water was so cold he thought his skin would
crack.
'How much further?' he wanted
to know.
Luke knelt awkwardly in the
dust. 'A mile, maybe.' He indicated with his stick a ridge of
trees a hundred metres or so above the creek.
'Past them trees it's all open
and flat. Cemetery, what there is of it, just before a gully,
under the trees on the far side. Nothing much to see now, just a
few stones and a bit of fencing.'
Russell slipped out of his
shoes and socks and waded into the creek. The water came up to his
knees and made him shake with the cold. He could hear Luke and the
girl whispering behind him. The old man called out, 'You won't
find no blackfellas' graves. No stones for blackfellas.' Half
turning, he could see them, holding on to each other, seemingly
fused in the irregular light. The boy stood slightly apart. He was
silent; there was a look on his face, something like pity, or
puzzlement.
A hawk was circling far above the few spare shrubs growing where
the township had been. He stopped for a moment to observe its
careful mapping of the ground. He had to shade his eyes from the
blaze of the sun.
Nothing else stirred. The
land, as Luke had said, was open and flat.
Why had he come? He kept
thinking of that other great silent place, the Lizard heathland
and, in particular, that lonely stretch of road where he'd got out
of the car to photograph the tracking station on Goonhilly
Down.
He remembered Jenna sitting,
sulking in the front seat.
He walked on. A mob of cattle
resting some distance off turned their ponderous heads as he
approached. Nothing remained of the town, no tracks or brick
stumps, no crumbling blackened chimneys. Just this silent treeless
plain. It was as if every small item of human endeavour had been
swept away overnight and the land returned to grass.
Somewhere where a church or
hotel might have been he stopped and looked around. The long
summer grasses had died and gone to seed. A short way off, against
the blue wash of the distant hills, something caught his eye; four
or five weathered posts, dangling rails: and a tip of silver from
the sun.
It was cooler there under the fringe of trees. Fallen branches and
the great carcase of a eucalypt, gutted by fire, littered the
ground. Once this had been an enclosure of tidy graves.
Was this the place where
they'd lowered the remains of Polly Longstockings?
There was only one engraved
stone: to the memory of James Ward who departed this life 22nd
April 1911 aged 80 years and 9 months; also Mary Ward who departed
this life 15th December 1915 aged 86 years. REQUIESCAT IN
PACE.
Storm and fire and sun had
diminished the stone. A low rusting iron railing surrounded the
couple's remains: a single bloom of bladderwort sprouted from the
flattened grass.
There were two or three other
graves, unmarked but for some broken timber or a cracked jar. The
rest was earth and rubble and cowshit.
He sat for a while and grew
thirsty. Now he was here he felt somehow defeated. His reasons for
coming had become confused and uncertain. He didn't want to think
about them. At one stage he thought he heard someone approach, but
it was only the sound of the long dry grass, rolling with a breath
of wind. Then he became aware of a faint smell, a whiff of
something familiar, half-realised, that drew him slowly into a
pool of self-absorption. He heard a voice say:
- Is this the place?
- I don't know. It could be.
There's no real way of knowing.
- There are ways of finding
out.
- What would you do?
- The usual. Library, parish
records, Historical Society archives, talk to locals...
- I talked to a man in
Malingabar.
- Was he helpful?
- About as helpful as your
monograph on William.
- It's all we know of him for
certain.
- You should've read his
letters to Marcus.
- You have that advantage.
What does it give you?
- Her name, for a start. I
know you didn't have it. It wasn't in your monograph. With the
facts.
- Names are unreliable. Names
change, are changed. Particularly names of blacks who cohabit with
whites.
- You're trying to discourage
me.
- You'll be disappointed,
anyway. You know you will. Is it so important to find this
wretched woman's grave?
Russell paused a moment, deep
in thought. Presently he took the piece of serpentine stone from
his pocket and held it out. Caught by the sun, there was the
suggestion of glass, of coloured light.
- I was going to place this on
it.
- A sentimental gesture.
- I would expect you to say
that. As a family we were never given much to sentimental
gestures, were we.
- Were we less of a family for
it?
- Ask my wife. Ask my son.
- You loved them. It should've
been enough.
- I lacked insight. I let
Jenna down, terribly.
- Walking off into the blue
yonder was her own doing.
- Perhaps... It's the
uncertainty that's killing me. So many 'what if...'s.
- You know she's dead.
- Do I?
- Some things you know
intuitively.
- That's rich, coming from
you.
- A good hunch can put you on
the right track. Isn't that why you're here?
- I'm here because a man told
me I might find what I'm looking for here.
- A grave. In a field of grass
and cowshit...
Russell stood up. His thirst
was growing urgent and he knew soon, very soon, he would have to
return to the creek. In his head he made a few simple notes; library, parish records, Historical Society archives... and
then, almost at once, forgot them. He wasn't sure any of it
mattered any more. Walking a few metres from where he'd been
sitting, he took a deep breath. The air was quite wonderfully
clean. He walked on to where he thought the boundary of the
cemetery might have been, and turned round.
If he told himself he knew she was here, he knew also that his faith in the power
of intuition was not deep. Nevertheless, he could believe she was
here. If Jenna were to turn up alive, he thought, in whatever
state of mind or health, he would be shaken, terribly shaken: but
not so surprised. If nothing was certain, anything was
possible.
He took the piece of stone
from his pocket again and examined it. He had imagined a small
private ceremony - something more than a gesture - that, in his
mind at least, would have brought a part of Jenna back to the
country of her birth. It no longer seemed important that it should
lie on the grave of 'that gangling Polly Longstockings', yet he
felt himself hesitate, reluctant to return home with the stone
still weighing down his pocket.
He would have to let it
go.
Once, twice he pitched the
stone straight into the air, and each time he caught it again. The
third time he let it fly, watched it soar high up through the blue
grey branches.
And he followed it, kept his
eyes on it, almost afraid some unseen hand might snatch it from
its flight. And indeed, for one short moment it seemed to hang
there, caught in the high branches, before spinning back. Spinning
like a tiny green moon, he thought, nudged out of its orbit;
spinning back to earth.
Historical Note
Thomas Bawden in his lectures of 1886 mentioned:
'Amongst them' (a party of blacks arriving at Ramornie Station)
'was a very tall gin, a very well known character about Grafton
until the last year or so - a tall blind old woman. She was known
to us on the station as Polly Longstockings.'
He made no other reference to her.
* * *
Ian
Kennedy Williams was born in England in 1949 and came to
Australia in 1970. He is the author of two novels and two
collections of short stories. He has also written radio drama
for the Australian Broadcasting Corporation. Call Polly
Longstockings was part of a collection of long and short
stories that won the Jim Hamilton Award in the 1995 Fellowship
of Australian Writers (Victoria) Inc National Literary
Awards.
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