Gerald Ganglbauer: we met on the net

Subject: Vienna
Date: 19/1/2000 11:17 AM
To: Bea Blue, beablue@hotmail.com

Dear Bea,

Finally I arrived in Austria: the plane was hours late (for bad weather conditions in Vienna) and there were no more trains to Linz at this time of night... what a long trip from midday in Madrid to after midnight in Vienna! And I was so exhausted...

Anyway, today I'll go to Linz and see my mother and Guenter. How was your trip? Was William picking you up? How's your mother? I'll write more when I get home (I have to browse through hundreds of emails now).

Miss you already and will try to get a flight at the beginning of February.

Love,
George

Subject: TE QUIERO.......
Date: 20/01 1:11 PM
Received: 07/02 2:13 PM
From: bea de la colombia, beablue@hotmail.com
To: george@green.com.au

Hola mi amor
I can Imagine how exhausted you were.... I feel a bit responsible but I am glad you had the opportunity to know Aldin better.......... through a lot of thinkig during my flight I realized how right you are in your perceptions towards people and places that sometimes I don't want to see mainly because I choose to live a dreamed place which could exist only in my hopes to find happiness...experiencing Spain with you open new and more realistic doors completely different and I could say the same for what it did to our relationship....... now I feel who you are and I feel you much closer than before even remembering our arguments and how difficult it felt at times I am glad we met in Spain.........I am not only a formalist but an individualist as well which is PROBABLY were we meet
thank you for your poem I read it all the time...it keeps me close to you....hopefully I will see you as soon as I am back[...]
te quiero
bea

Subject: Linz
Date: 20/1/2000 1:11 PM
To: Bea Blue, beablue@hotmail.com

Hi Baby,

Warmest greetings from my mother; looking at your picture (Darwin airport) she said: "oh, Bea looks very nice and she's casually dressed, just as you like it..." isn't that funny? The new pictures are being processed and I'll wait for her to see you all dressed up...
She was wondering if she would still live to see us getting married and regretted that she would never be able to talk to you.

My body is still exhausted; even in my own bed I couldn't sleep properly (went to bed at 10pm but missed cuddling you) and I was still tired when I woke up. Breakfast was already waiting for me and we're talked for some time. Mum was pleased with the Toledo present; she's already filled it with her pills. I had to tell her 'everything' about you, which I did more or less (with a little filtering...).

Guenter and I are going for skiing on the weekend; I have to look into my cellar and check the ski gear, hopefully it is usable after more than 10 years in storage. Looking out of my window I see snow and it is a few degrees colder; I'm waiting for all my washed clothes to dry to go out again...

In the next couple of days I will go down town and check out investment options and portfolios with "First Austrian" and "Bank Austria" for your Spanish funds. I also have to push two clients to pay for my work from last year in Linz. I'm taking your advice and will be tougher in business...

Hasta luego,
Georgeo

Subject: Re: TE QUIERO.......
Date: 22/1/2000 1:18 PM
To: bea de la colombia, beablue@hotmail.com

bea de la colombia wrote:

>I choose to live a dreamed place which could exist only in my hopes to
>find happiness...

Mein Schatz,

This also applied to me now that I look at Linz (it's snowing again and too cold to go skiing); I don't even know what I'm going to do here any more - without you it's empty. Happiness can't be found in oneself (unless one's a Buddhist monk, maybe) but only in pairs, I believe. Even more so in odd ones like you and me!

>even remembering our arguments and how difficult it felt at times I
>am glad we met in Spain...

Me too, baby. And I'm glad I found a Bank Keycard in Linz just like yours but without the Maestro/Cirrus logos. I'll bring it as a momentum for us not to fight over things we're both right anymore... Pity we couldn't travel together to Austria and Columbia at this time, but it won't be long until I see you in Sydney!

Love you,
George

From: green@start.com.au
To: bea
Subject: Missing your voice
Date: 1/24/00 9:13:05 PM

Bea, baby,

It's been almost a week... I miss your voice!
If I'm not home at +43 111 22 33 44 you can find me at Guenter's house at +43 111 33 44 55.

Love you heaps,
George

Subject: Ich liebe dich
Date: 25/01 11:31 AM
Received: 07/02 2:10 PM
From: bea de la colombia, beablue@hotmail.com
To: george@green.com.au

Mi Amor
I have been away at my brother's farm in the country otherwise I would have kept in touch........ just now I called Guenter's house with no luck but tomorrow I will call again around 8p.m there.....
about your invitation I would seriously be delighted to attend with you...... am I really going to see you soon? when?I hope this is true since I miss you so much.....I went to the dentist this morning and the pain was so unbereable I had to close my eyes and fantasize about making love with you ......... it ended being an exiting experience as I let my imagination run free...... fortunatelly the pain was non existant and changed into pleasure
Everyone here nows about you and have seen your photograph is surprising for most since no one knew I am not with my X anymore but of course when I talk about you I never use filters and my mother is looking foward to meet you.......I must go now but will talk to you tomorrow[...]
te quiero
bea

Subject: Re: Ich liebe dich
Date: 25/1/2000 10:44 AM
To: bea de la colombia, beablue@hotmail.com

Ich dich auch, mein Schatz!

>about your invitation I would seriously be delighted to attend with
>you...... am I really going to see you soon? when?I hope this is true >since I miss you so much...

Ruark is an old friend of mine. Latin background, too (Brazil).
I've put myself on earlier waitlists; the flight on Sunday 6/2 looks promising.
Linz is very cold right now; down to minus 20 degrees!

>Everyone here nows about you and have seen your photograph is
>surprising formost since no one knew I am not with my X anymore
>but of course when I talk about you I never use filters and my mother
>is looking foward to meet you....

Same here, my friends are all eager to meet you in June (and love you already)...
The only "filters" I applied were that I didn't tell that you're still married and on questions about what you do I say you're a freelance pilot, because I can't tell the "Communists" that you don't need to work...

Will hear you voice soon! Guenter has an answering machine running to leave messages but usually I'm home by 8pm, except for last night when we went to a reading into town and had drinks after until past midnight... He said that the line quality was so terrible when you phoned, he could hardly understand. Did you call over the Internet?

Te quiero, (mucho)
Georgeo

Subject: Talkin' was good - dreamin' even better
Date: 26/1/2000 1:31 PM
To: Bea Blue, beablue@hotmail.com

Hi Baby,

Talking to you was good last night; but my dreams were even better (I shouldn't describe them in writing... X-rated material...). Thanks for calling!

I'll try to be home asap and will let you know the moment a flight is confirmed.
I hope to make it into Sydney shortly after your arrival.

It's still too cold for skiing, I'll probably drag Guenter to the sauna instead.

Te quiero,
George

Subject: Mi amor
Date: 27/01 4:27 AM
Received: 07/02 2:11 PM
From: bea de la colombia, beablue@hotmail.com
To: george@green.com.au

Mi amor
This is the first time that I look forward to going back to sydney hopefully you will be there soon otherwise you won't find me......it was dissapointing for me not beeing able to talk to your mother I wish at least I could understand a bit as you do with spanish .....
anyway maybe I will learn some german if you teach it to me with lots of love in between so that it gets easier...........tomorrow I am going to girardot 3 hours from here hopefully i will be back![...]
see you soon
te quiero
bea

From: green@start.com.au
To: bea
Subject: Colombia
Date: 1/27/00 4:01:56 AM

Baby,

I had a look around
http://www.colombiaexport.com/colombiaexport/Ingles/FrameP.htm
Nice site and products, but I'm not a good salesperson.

Interested to hearing your business ideas...

Bussi,
George

Subject: Skiing!!!
Date: 28/1/2000 8:04 PM
To: Bea Blue, beablue@hotmail.com

Hi Baby,

Today we had a beautiful winter day - sunshine and snow - so Guenter and I went skiing.
I loved it. 12 years ago I was last time skiing and today it seemed like yesterday. Just with riding a bicycle, you don't forget - and we really enjoyed the day.
On the weekend we probably go to a sauna and early next week I'll take the train to Vienna to wait for the flight back - into your arms again...

Love you,
George

From: green@start.com.au
To: bea
Subject: Snow Photos
Date: 1/30/00 3:54:58 AM

Hi Bea,

I thought you might like to see me in the snow:
Have a look at http://www.green.com.au/George/Ski01.jpg and
http://www.green.com.au/George/Ski02.jpg and http://www.green.com.au/George/Ski03.jpg
and http://www.green.com.au/George/Ski04.jpg (if the attachments to this email don't work...)

Wish you were here,
George

PS: I've seen wild deer in the woods on my walk to Guenter's house!

From: green@start.com.au
To: bea
Subject: Rare photos
Date: 1/31/00 9:15:24 PM

Hi Baby,

Hopefully you're back in Bogota; I'm a little worried because you said you'd look up your email on Sunday... Please let me know that you're OK!

Here's some rare photos:
http://www.green.com.au/George/Ball01.jpg and
http://www.green.com.au/George/Ball02.jpg

Missing you very much,
George

From: "bea de la colombia" <beablue@hotmail.com>
To: green@start.com.au
Subject: Re: Rare photos
Date: Mon, 31 Jan 2000 12:38:26 GMT

Hi, George. I'm O.K. I'm just leaving to Miami in a couple of hours and will be back to sydney the day after tomorrow. Let me know when will you be back and all the flight details. I haven't been able to check the e-mails but as soon as I get to sydney, I'll see the pictures.[...]
see you soon
love
bea

From: green@start.com.au
To: beablue@hotmail.com
Subject: Re: rare photos
Date: 2/2/00 1:43:02 AM

My dear Bea Baby,

I'm so relieved to learn that you're on your way to Florida. I was getting really worried about you being in "wild" Colombian country...

Tomorrow (2/2/00) I'll start the waiting game for the return flight in Vienna. Will remain online and let you know asap. I sincerely hope that I don't have to wait long to see you again!

Love you heaps,
George

Subject: Waiting...
Date: 3/2/2000 10:18 AM
To: Bea Blue, beablue@hotmail.com

Liebes Schatzi,

Welcome back to Sydney, Australia!

The first plane left Vienna without me; they had 80 people waiting with higher priorities than me. However, I'm wait listed on every flight - although the first confirmed booking came only down to 10/2/00 - and I'm waiting. Apparently every expat who came for the festive season to Europe now wants to get back...

I'll keep you posted. At least it won't be more than a week!

Te quiero,
Georgeo

Subject: Super! Spitze! Arriva!
Date: 3/2/2000 11:07 AM
To: Bea Blue, beablue@hotmail.com

Dear Bea,

This is great news: I just talked to Lauda Air again and conquered a seat on the plane tomorrow (4/2/00, 13:35) which arrives in Sydney this Saturday, 5/2/00, on 19:15.

I hope to seeing you at the airport for a very long hug and kiss!

Your George

Subject: Today's the day!
Date: 4/2/2000 8:05 AM
To: Bea Blue, beablue@hotmail.com

Hi Bea,

In a few of hours I'll be on NG001 bound for Sydney... on time to spend the weekend with you!
Right now my sister Betty and I are going to meet somewhere in Vienna for brunch until they drop me at the airport to wave goodbye from Austria.

See you tomorrow!

Love you,
George

Subject: Sehnsucht
Date: 22/2/2000 3:33 PM
To: Bea Blue, beablue@hotmail.com

Hi Bea,

This is two long working days until the birthday break...
I am looking forward to getting away with you!

Love,
Georgeo

Subject: Astrology
Date: 4/4/2000 1:45 PM
To: Bea Blue, beablue@hotmail.com

Hi mi amor,

Today in the office I thought it would be nice to create Astrology reports for the two kids as surprise gifts... so if you have all their birth data give/mail them to me and I'll produce the full reports this week. Catch you later!

Love,
George

From: "bea b" <beablue@hotmail.com>
To: green@start.com.au
Subject: a kiss to thank you
Date: Sat, 08 Apr 2000 20:32:41 EST

HI
my bed has enlarge to enormous proportions .........teddy is back sleeping with me but is not the same[...]
ich liebe dich
bea

From: green@start.com.au
To: beablue@hotmail.com
Subject: Re: a kiss to thank you
Date: 4/9/00 7:31:01 AM

Original message from: "bea b" <beablue@hotmail.com>

>ich liebe dich
>bea

Te quiero,
Georgeo

(Sunday, 7:30 am)

Subject: Fwd: ByronBay Guest House
Date: 10/4/2000 11:34 AM
To: Bea Blue, beablue@hotmail.com

Dear Bea,

If you're interested in Byron Bay you should get in touch with THIS woman soon...

Phone: 0266 888888

Te quiero,
Georgeo

---------------- Begin Forwarded Message ----------------
Date: 09/04 3:55 PM
Received: 10/04 11:21 AM
From: Donna Purple, purpleguest@hotmail.com
To: george@green.com.au

Dear George.
I have 2 rooms available for the easter period. The price is $170 a night.
These rooms may be gone tomorrow as l have someone calling me on Monday.
Other than my house l don't think there is anything available in Byron over the easter period.The town is all booked out.
Donna P

----------------- End Forwarded Message -----------------

From: green@start.com.au
To: bea
Subject: Time Out
Date: 4/11/00 5:08:20 PM

Hi Bea,

No fax yet from Madrid... no confirmation of my home loan yet... not enough sleep yet... no new jobs yet... no sign of mi amor yet...

Not much to tell today. Except that I've had a headache all day.

Love,
Georgeo

From: green@start.com.au
To: bea
Subject: Relationship...
Date: 4/12/00 7:30:06 AM

Hi Bea,

I already composed three letters for you after our phone conversations last night and discarded all of them... let's cool off first and than look again at what we know (and remember) about each other after six months time...

Sex is easy.
Love is hard.

George

Wednesday, 7:30 am

From: green@start.com.au
To: bea
Subject: Picture Perfect
Date: 4/13/00 2:44:17 PM

Hi Bea-Baby,

I dropped by today to tell you the latest news and unfortunately you were out (but as we said we'd do it taking the risk to find that nobody's home). Never mind...

Last night in Mary Ann Street I found my dream apartment!

Today I've been running around to finance the unit and tomorrow morning I'm going to write a cheque for the deposit... I'm quite excited!
Keep your fingers crossed the bank doesn't deny a loan in the last minute.

As for us I've done a lot of thinking and I propose we should sit together for a coffee or meal and talk face to face... the last couple of phone conversations ended frustrating...

Love you,
George

From: "bea b" <beablue@hotmail.com>
To: green@start.com.au
Subject: dreams
Date: Thu, 13 Apr 2000 18:31:12 EST

hi george
I am really glad you got your dream maybe once you have it you will help you realize which are your main priorities in life since everything happens for a good reason.....................
probably one day you will choose to learn to balance the substance of feelings, mater and productivity... and will help you discover your own spiritual side again...[...]
bea
p.s I will be here around 6 p.m tomorrow if you want to pick up your things

From: green@start.com.au
To: beablue@hotmail.com
Subject: Re: dreams
Date: 4/14/00 9:13:18 AM

Original message from: "bea b" <beablue@hotmail.com>

>p.s I will be here around 6 p.m tomorrow...

OK Bea, see you tonight!

Love,
George

From: green@start.com.au
To: beablue@hotmail.com
Subject: Sweet Dreams?
Date: 4/15/00 9:03:01 AM

Good Morning Bea,

I hope you've had sweet dreams and no head ache...
Even after the beer/wine/tequila mix of last night I woke up at 7:30 and it felt good to have seen you again.

Please ring me at any time today to let me know when it would be 'convenient' for you that I drop by to pick up the pieces...

Love, always,
Georgeo

From: green@start.com.au
To: bea
Subject: Madrid!
Date: 4/17/00 7:33:07 AM

Hi Bea-Baby,

Feels like a deja-vu sending you emails to Madrid!

I hope you've had a pleasant flight (and no time for shopping in Italy). Looking forward to hearing about the warehouses... I'm still confident that I can organise the finances for my little 'penthouse':
I've sent faxes to my Austrian banks and might get a mortgage on my apartment in Linz. Guenter gave me this idea and it could work. Andrea and other friends I've asked didn't have the money (but would have lent it to me if they had...).

Anyway, I've got until Tuesday 5pm after Easter!

Let me know how you like Spain this time without me...

Love,
George

From: green@start.com.au
To: bea
Subject: Peace of Mind
Date: 4/20/00 1:51:22 PM

Hi Bea,

How are things? I guess you couldn't find a computer in Madrid yet and have been busy inspecting properties... I hope there's nothing to worry about for your Spanish friends would be looking after you...

For my peace of mind - and to prove that I'm not a liar - I walked past the bike shop in Elizabeth Street this morning and asked them for the cost of the Peugeot scooter that Anna wanted: they have two models, one for 6,000 and one for 6,500 plus onroad costs.

What a relief - I was right - because it was than, when you showed me that Peugeot prospectus, that I said that Anna would be better off driving my car for the same money.

If you'd remembered that correctly we could have saved us - and Anna - all this hard feelings... too late now.

Still loving you,
Georgeo

From: "bea b" <beablue@hotmail.com>
To: green@start.com.au
Subject: Re: Peace of Mind
Date: Mon, 24 Apr 2000 05:28:30 EST

hi george
for my peace of mind i will show you the place where i got the quote from and they not only had peogeots but many other brands and your curiosity only allowed you to see one in particular.........anyway it is not my obligation to give you always what you require......i am not in a possition to be use by anyone and wont ever be i would only pay the market price if i buy a car for anna[...]
cheers
bea

From: green@start.com.au
To: beablue@hotmail.com
Subject: Lady and the Tramp
Date: 4/24/00 1:23:46 PM

Original message from: "bea b" <beablue@hotmail.com>
>
>hi george
>...anyway it is not my obligation
>to give you always what you require...

Hi Lady,

Good to hear from you - but what about the news from Spain? How are you? Did you find what you were looking for? Did you miss me or are you happy to be on your own in Madrid? Did you receive my Easter Greetings? Are the kids alright? How is the Atlantic Ocean? (I haven't seen it for many years.)
Just a "Cheers" from you?

I miss you - when do you come home?

Love,
The Tramp

From: green@start.com.au
To: bea
Subject: Looking for Alibrandi
Date: 4/27/00 9:44:34 AM

Hi Bea-Baby,

I've just watched a movie that I'd love to seeing again with you guys. 'Looking for Alibrandi' is starring Maria and Bart, or you and me - and guess in which High School it's set? It's not in the cinemas yet but I have a preview on video and look forward to showing it after your return!

Love,
Georgeo

From: green@start.com.au
To: bea
Subject: Spanish Place
Date: 4/29/00 2:21:26 PM

Hi Baby,

Yesterday I had to kill some time in the City between two appointments (a job interview and another apartment inspection) and went to "our" Spanish Place for a couple of beers - the first time just by myself...
Thinking of you - and I missed you!

Please let me know how you are, what you feel and when you're coming back!

Hasta luego,
Georgeo

From: green@start.com.au
To: bea
Subject: Waiting...
Date: 5/4/00 2:19:53 PM

Hi Baby,

I'm waiting for news from you! I understand that there's not many computers in Spain but I'm sure you can always find a phone to let me know what's up and when you're back... I even considered calling Anna or Miguel...

I miss you!

As far as I'm concerned, I worked hard over the past three weeks to get my business up and running again. I've applied for about 30 jobs - contract and full time - and have had quite good interviews.
Time will tell what I'm going to do but it's looking promising.

Also I have settled back in Belvoir Street and look forward to welcoming you in mi casa!

Love,
George

From: "bea b" <beablue@hotmail.com>
To: green@start.com.au
Subject: Re: Waiting...
Date: Fri, 05 May 2000 01:28:07 EST

hi george
I needed time to think and get my ideas feelings and emotions in order....but still words and actions come back to me........like your statements of right and wrong and your desire to show me you know better...I want to love you but you make it really hard....my wish is for you to get organize and feel the best and maybe that will make a difference between us.......I am not sure.....[...]
love
bea

From: green@start.com.au
To: beablue@hotmail.com
Subject: Re: Re: Waiting...
Date: 5/5/00 10:03:16 AM

Original message from: "bea b" <beablue@hotmail.com>
>
>I needed time to think and get my ideas feelings and emotions in
>order...

Mi amor,

I was so happy to find your email this morning! I understand you. Let me know your flight number - and I'd love to pick you up from the airport.

>...but still words and actions come back to me........like your
>statements of right and wrong and your desire to show me you know better...

I think that's because we're both very 'just' and 'right' and 'honest' and it bugs us if we're misinterpreted or not understood. I am hoping that in time we will be able to communicate our feelings without fear of getting something wrong and that there will be a solid layer of trust underneath!

>...want to love you but you make it really hard...

That sentence feels so good and I am confident that we can make it happen with leaving each other the private space that we need...

>...my wish is for you to get
>organize and feel the best and maybe that will make a difference between
>us.......I am not sure.....

I'm on my way... time will tell!

Looking very much forward to seeing you soon!

Te quiero,
Georgeo

PS. I am also very curious about your news from Spain

From: green@start.com.au
To: bea
Subject: Just a kiss!
Date: 5/7/00 5:27:40 PM

Bea,

Wherever you are and whatever you do this is just a sweet kiss for you - and to let you know that I miss you... Wish you were here!

Love you,
George

News from Belvoir Street: Duane has moved back to New Zealand and is replaced by Momo, a Japanese girl, this week

From: green@start.com.au
To: bea
Subject: Ally McBeal
Date: 5/9/00 11:34:49 AM

Hi Bea,

Watching TV on Monday nights isn't the same without you... are you going to be much longer in Spain?

I talked to my mother a few times and she sends her warmest regards and said I shouldn't let you stay too long with your ex husbands and that you're most welcome if you can make a stopover in Austria.

Would love to hear your voice soon!

Te quiero,
Georgeo

From: green@start.com.au
To: bea
Subject: Empty Space
Date: 5/11/00 11:02:02 AM

Mi amor,

You left a big empty space in my heart (and in the bed)... I hope you're not away for much longer! I haven't heard from Maria (so I assume she's OK and back from Brisbane) but I'm sure that she's missing you too!

I would at least love to hear your voice on the phone sometime soon, but better still would be a big long hug!!!

....and tell me what you feel!

Love you,
George

From: "bea b" <beablue@hotmail.com>
To: green@start.com.au
Subject: Waiting...thinking
Date: Fri, 12 May 2000 05:57:13 EST

hi george
I have had a very hectic week and now I feel like beeing at home doing nothing.......this time alone made me analize and think about why I feel uncertain with you............life is a balance in every way .... I find hard to understand your lack of interest in your work and how your dreams always have to come through only if your friends or partner make it a reality.......sometimes my responsabilities which are my daughters, my investments and the domestic cooking shopping etc give me pleasure since I also nurture myself with the rewards of things I like to do....with you I hardly do any of this because you have no income and maybe dont want to have it but when on top of that you add another adult who instead of making life lighter for you adds restrinctions in every thinkable way it becomes very frightening.....
I believe everyone has a hard life and after acertain amount of time your choises become very clear... each person has a time to realize what he or she wants in life......you have been delicious in part of my choises the way you make me feel is very special but what can we do about the rest?[...]
thinking about you......
bea
p.s what happen with the apartment you wanted?

From: green@start.com.au
To: beablue@hotmail.com
Subject: Re: Waiting...thinking
Date: 5/12/00 10:07:35 AM

Original message from: "bea b" <beablue@hotmail.com>
>
>I have had a very hectic week and now I feel like beeing at home doing
>nothing...

Hi Bea,

Good to hear from you again... at home? Are you already back from Spain? Everytime I see a black Mercedes on the street I turn my head to see if it's you... I think about you a lot and even though your email is confusing in parts I believe in you!

>... I find
>hard to understand your lack of interest in your work and how your
>dreams always have to come through only if your friends or partner make
>it a reality...

I never said that I didn't care about my work, as a matter of fact is has been my life priority before I met you; and I did all I could to get back into business in these weeks you were gone!

>...with you I
>hardly do any of this because you have no income and maybe dont want to
>have it but when on top of that you add another adult who instead of
>making life lighter for you adds restrinctions in every thinkable way
>it becomes very frightening.....

Well, I told you I settled back in Belvoir Street on my own feet... and where are the responsibilities for you in this regard? Isn't loving each other the only one? I quite don't understand this point...

>I believe everyone has a hard life and after acertain amount of time
>your choises become very clear... each person has a time to realize
>what he or she wants in life......you have been delicious in part of my
>choises the way you make me feel is very special but what can we do
>about the rest?

Visit me and you'll find out!

>thinking about you......

Me too!!!

>p.s what happen with the apartment you wanted?

I bought it - without any help from family or friends and will rent it out straight away, generating rental income of $300 a week. I'm not that up in the clouds with my head as you might believe; I managed to organise my own financials for all my life and was never dependent on friends, family or partners as you suggested... Just trust me on that.

Can't wait to seeing you and learn about your Spanish getaway.

I love you!
George

Subject: We'll get there, Baby!
Date: 16/5/2000 8:08 PM
To: Bea Blue, beablue@hotmail.com

Mi amor,

I just got back from a nice chat and a light meal with Angela (8pm, but now I know that you check the time messages were sent). We talked mostly about you! It was quite pleasant catching up (I hadn't seen her for almost a year) but I had to smile when you were getting a little bit jealous when you left...

Thought I'd drop you a line to say how much I liked you dropping in this afternoon and that I am happy with the way we were talking - and we'll get there, eventually (probably).

Tomorrow, as you know, I have two appointments - wish me luck. The second one is at 4:30 in the City so I might come around after...

Love you,
George

From: green@start.com.au
To: bea
Subject: Anna's Radio Code
Date: 5/18/00 11:52:51 AM

Hi Bea,

Last night I forgot to tell Anna that I placed the radio code hidden on the back of the fuse box cover inside the car, if needed. But unless the power is interrupted it's not necessary to re-enter it into the stereo.

In my emotions I also left my document folder behind, just in case you come around to talk with me...

Hasta luego,
George

From: green@start.com.au
To: bea
Subject: Promised Movie
Date: 5/19/00 10:27:28 AM

Hi guys,

I'll see you later this afternoon for the promised showing of the video, "Looking for Alibrandi". Would around 4 to 5pm suit you?

Hasta luego,
George

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Adios, Bea!
22/5/2000 9:03:17

Subject: The Goodbye Poem
Date: 23/5/2000 4:08 PM
To: Bea Blue, beablue@hotmail.com

Lady and the Tramp

There was this Lady
and the tramp
he fell for her soft body
saw the beauty in her face
believed in true love
mesmerised by her scent

She said I love you
maybe she meant it
Seeing only herself
taking advantage of blindness
of a tramp
who believed in love

When they shared a bed
they spent quality time together
and maybe than she loved him
but she kept her money tight
he spend more on her
than he could afford

He needed to turn every Cent
living a humble life
she tells him
you can't afford me
abandoning him in Double Bay
totally humiliated

Now he sees her hard face
the beautiful facade scattered
beneath her skin
Dollar notes shining through
leaving nothing but
a rich bitch

Subject: where is your love?
Date: 24/05 9:46 AM
Received: 24/05 12:47 PM
From: bea b, beablue@hotmail.com
To: george@green.com.au

darling
I really feel you should focus your talents towards a more productive creative horizon.... the object of living a life is not only about merely survival but of being able of having a balance ....how can a person that looks so beatifull, has so much talent and seems so interesting lack completely the sensitivity to appreciate and respond to; fun, nature as well as any wordly mundane social comunication.....right now you have the ability to turn everything into money which is your fixation and your obsession....
being a materialistic person doesn't require you to be rich; the only requirement is a desperation and the desire to own what others have without the effort that it implies .....I much prefer to be a rich bitch than a poor materialistic soul who thinks he deserves the world taking it from others.... your creativity should emphasize the realities of our surroundings and the fantasies which come with them instead of always bringing out your obvious main interest in life.....money....love is not in your list of priorities right now, it was certainly clear to me today.
I bring you into my home and my children and share everything with you including all my love...but it was not enough

>but she kept her money tight
>he spend more on her
>than he could afford
WHEN?????????????
[...]
all my love
good luck
bea

Subject: Re: where is your love?
Date: 24/5/2000 12:51 PM
To: bea b, beablue@hotmail.com

bea b wrote:

>all my love
>good luck

Wait for my next poem...
Maybe you'll start looking into yourself, than.
I think too much about you.

Take care,
George

Subject: Eyes Wide Shut
Date: 25/5/2000 10:10 AM
To: Bea Blue, beablue@hotmail.com

The Royal Mirror

She thought of herself as a queen
the laziest woman in the world
spending lots on her outfit
'cause looks are so important
sleeping in till midday
only peasants get up in the morning
calling at everyone from her room
to talk to her at the bedside
(well, she's a queen, or is she not?)

All people around her
she treats as her servants
get me the mail from downstairs
I want desert, will you get it for me
stay here, I want company
you should do it for me with pleasure
whinging most of the day
my husbands used to do everything
(where are they now?)

Nothing gets done in time
unless it can be done over the phone
from the comfort of the bed, of course
letters sit unopened for days
parcels wait for weeks to be posted
food rots away in the fridge
aren't we lucky to have a cleaner
even the rent is paid late
(well, they just have to wait, don't they?)

A raw model for the kids
they never see her doing anything
but spending big money
on clothes and cosmetics
for dance classes and entertainment
on beauticians and hair dressers
for expensive home delivered meals
and the occasional massage, of course
(life is a beach, or is it not?)

With the effect that one girl
thinks the day begins in the afternoon
neglecting her studies at university
wants everything to fall into her lap
or out of her mother's closet
fights with her like in a bullfight
leaving a mess behind
being this little princess bitch
(has the same temper as her mother)

The other one
is completely unmotivated
as fussy as her mother and just as lazy
in search of values and direction
but lost in a world
where wrong examples show the way
escapes into friendship to a street kid
watching TV instead of doing homework
(if she attends school at all)

The queen loves herself talking
oh she's so full of arrogance
never learnt to listen to anyone
kids, lover, friends
but making sure
she talks just long enough
to always get in the last word
no matter what others have to say
(or what they feel for that matter)

She's so selfish and so spoilt
she doesn't even realise it
looks at herself in a magic mirror
sees that queen she wants to see
men have to be gentlemen
and tell her they love her fake tits
her standards and culture and manners
are the only right ones in the world
(why is her country in such a mess, than?)

Her friends are few and distant
some remain for selfish reasons
most disappear well in time
'cause she fights with all of them
hurts them, gets hurt in return
and hurts again even harder
dislikes all people of this country
that gave her a home for many years
(but gets the most out of it)

There's a chance that maybe
she might leave these lies behind
by looking deeper into herself
not failing anymore as a mother
by learning to listen, learning to change
learn true, not selfish love
and regain the genuine love from
the ones who still believe in her
(it's never too late, or is it?)

From: green@start.com.au
To: bea
Subject: Today's Paper
Date: 5/27/00 8:42:37 PM

Sydney Morning Herald, 27/05/00:

NISSAN MICRA SLX95, auto 5dr.
hatch, silver in colour, superb,
$10,990. UGT562.
D.L. 17030 9487 3711

You see, dear darling Bea, $6,000 with buyback guarantee after six months wouldn't have been a bad deal after all: it's the same model and same year, the only difference being an auto instead of a manual. And a loved and trusted car with only 30,000 km in mint technical condition.

Bye the way, I didn't cash your cheque. Under these circumstances I'd rather use my credit card and pay 15.70% interest. So don't worry, you're still $5,000 richer.

Wishing you well,
"Eyes Wide Shut" or not,
George

Instant Message from: George G (online)
Thinking about you too much...
29/5/2000 11:31:36

From: green@start.com.au
To: bea
Subject: Which Bank
Date: 6/1/00 10:58:16 AM

Hi Bea,

Thanks to your withdrawn offer to see your personal banker with me, the bank ripped me off for over $4,000 by not negotiating the exchange rate from my EURO transfers.

Although I've already sent a letter of disagreement to the bank (I'm really pisssed off with them for this and many other reasons) I doubt that I will get my money back.

This left me with no other option but to bank your cheque.

Sorry...
George

From: "bea b" <beablue@hotmail.com>
To: green@start.com.au
Subject: hi
Date: Thu, 01 Jun 2000 18:36:14 EST

hi george
why do you have to blame other people for your problems? life is always a gamble we win some we loose others... you should be thankful you got such a bargain with that apartment and stop your blames if you are selfish and self centered of course I don't want to help you ......you had your settlement a week ago so why haven't you sold your car instead of using my check? I just found a car, so I need the money too, and please don't asume I have any obligation with you ...you are 41yrs old and sometimes you act as if I am your mother![...]
good luck
bea
p.s any new work in perspective? a friend mention something I will get back to you if it is anything interesting.

From: green@start.com.au
To: beablue@hotmail.com
Subject: Re: hi
Date: 6/2/00 5:43:02 PM

Original message from: "bea b" <beablue@hotmail.com>
>
>...you are 41yrs old and sometimes you act as if I am
>your mother! (42 actually!)

My dear friend,

When the words of my poems will show results sometime,
we'll talk again...

Good luck to you, too.

George

PS: My agent, Gerard, will help you find an apartment.
He'll be in touch. Eric doesn't have anything right now.

From: "bea b" <beablue@hotmail.com>
To: green@start.com.au
Subject:
Date: Fri, 02 Jun 2000 19:01:39 EST

dear george green
In reference to the cash check I gave you #0053 from my personal account at the commonwealth bank I would appreciate if you return it within a week, I have told you I had no interest in purchasing your car anymore therefore I need my check back, or otherwise the five thousand dollars in cash since I bought another car as I previously mention to you.[...]
best wishes

beatrice blue

From: green@start.com.au
To: beablue@hotmail.com
Subject: Re: Your true face
Date: 6/3/00 12:00:29 PM

Original message from: "bea b" <beablue@hotmail.com>
>
>dear george green
>In reference to the cash check I gave you...

Dear Bea,

This is finally your true greedy selfish angry face?

As for your money: you'll get it back at exactly the terms and conditions you mentioned when you wrote this cheque for me: whenever I can.
That little loan had nothing to do with my car anymore; I never intended to sell it to anyone else - it would have been for you only for the time you needed it and I was going to buy it back after six months - as you know.
Bye the way, I gave it to Anna with a full tank and got it back with hardly any petrol to make it to the station and with a broken temperature dial and a broken remote. Thanks!

As for yourself, I begin to wonder how I could have loved you so much. You don't seem to get it, do you? You're so selfcentered that you ruined our love and are wondering why you don't have any genuine friends left: I seem to have been the only one the past seven months who genuinely loved you, despite the plastic boobs and you being so very capricious. The funny thing is that I still love you and can't seem to stop thinking about you. Silly me, after these pointless phone conversations and your 'nice' message on the tape when I got back home.

I believe that somewhere deep down you're a beautiful, caring person, but it would be a good time to search within yourself to find it and bring it to the surface - and I wish for you that you might find somebody like me sometime again, who loves you as what you are - not for your millions and not even for José's children - just for Beatrice.

I will nurture and keep the good memories only in my heart...

Love,
George

From: "bea b" <beablue@hotmail.com>
To: green@start.com.au
Subject:
Date: Sun, 04 Jun 2000 12:10:23 EST

dear George Green
My fears about you are now confirmed ....you have a complete lack of
integrity and no self respect
>"This is finally your true greedy selfish angry face?"
this frase is exactly you, my advise; you should start working and get your own money instead of expecting your lovers to support you, you will see the difference that it will make....you will gain self respect and confidence in your work and will stop your obsession and greediness with others belongings.by the way I gave your website details to Helga to pass it on to a german professor who has a PHD in Austrian literature.

please only get in contact with me if you are returning my check otherwise I appreciate your silence.[...]
BB

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Silence it is, than...
5/6/2000 18:04:41

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From: green@start.com.au
To: bea
Subject: Contact
Date: 6/7/00 11:22:37 AM

Hi BB,

Got your instant message. Thanks.

If your only concern is your money: don't worry.
As long as you keep me up-to-date with your address,
my cheque(s) will find you in the mail.

If, however, you learned something new about us,
or want to apologise for calling me a liar and a crook,
you're anytime welcome to my house.

Cheers,
GG

Instant Message from: Bea B (online)
hey, write me a line and tell me what you are doing
7/6/2000 18:16:11

From: green@start.com.au
To: bea
Subject: write me a line...
Date: 6/8/00 7:53:47 AM

...and tell me what you are doing

Hi "jewell",

At around 6:16 PM I just came home from another job interview, watched Ally McBeal (on tape), ate 2-minute-noodles and watched The X-Files before going to bed (now that was even 3 lines).

Bye the way, the first story (A Fairy Tale) in the new issue is hand picked for you especially...

Hasta luego,
George

From: "bea b" <beablue@hotmail.com>
To: green@start.com.au
Subject: Re: write me a line...
Date: Thu, 08 Jun 2000 09:24:21 EST

yes...
it is a great feeling to show ones's pride after feeling hurt but now I feel above all this....I had a dream where I was dying and even though superstition interprets this as a rebirth my thoughts started wondering with no limitation and out of melancholy ended wondering about you and me......I found too much hatred where there was so much love.....I suppose it had to be this way;our main purpose in life diminished down to leaving only two naked bodies absorbing each other gradually mutating into just plain laziness behind an empty angry pair blaming and bitching with rage.
My anger is gone... lets end this journey in a pleasant peaceful way......[...]
with love
the royal jewell

p.s I liked better the story about the music composer

From: green@start.com.au
To: beablue@hotmail.com
Subject: Re: with love
Date: 6/8/00 9:40:21 AM

Original message from: "bea b" <beablue@hotmail.com>
>
>My anger is gone... lets end this journey in a pleasant peaceful way......
>with love
>the royal jewell

Yes, mine's gone, too!
Understanding has yet to come.

But the journey never ends... unless it's like in your dreams...
I know what you mean... I'm walking past Millennium Tower almost every day and can't go by without looking up to your balcony or hoping that black truck would cut the corner or something...

Time will tell.

Love,
ArtLover

From: green@start.com.au
To: bea
Subject: Need help with the Mercedes?
Date: 6/8/00 11:20:26 AM

Hi Bea,

I finally spoke with this friend of a friend of my neighbour David who's a panelbeater, in case you need help with the Mercedes' dents.

His name's Baba, phone 9777 7777 and guess what: he's also Latino.

Baba's going to fix my Micra, eventually (probably).

Hasta luego,
George

From: "bea b" <beablue@hotmail.com>
To: green@start.com.au
Subject: Re: Need help with the Mercedes?
Date: Thu, 08 Jun 2000 23:04:41 EST

george
thanks for the info

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Reason: why did you cut me off?
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9/6/2000 13:47:26

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Gertraud sends her regards I saw her this morning at ballet class and we talked about you. ..I had no idea you knew her
9/6/2000 13:50:26

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9/6/2000 13:52:24

Instant Message from: George G (online)
Thanks for the greetings... Gertraud? Of course I know her - I designed two posters etc for her.
Btw: I didn't cut you off... did you change your name?
9/6/2000 13:54:46

From: green@start.com.au
To: bea
Subject: ArtLover's gone
Date: 6/9/00 2:23:01 PM

Dear Bea,

There's no more ArtLover, chat or rsvp; just me as what I am.
I don't know what happened to instant messages, the system said at one time that beablue doesn't exist and I guessed you changed your name or something - but now you're back on.

If you're up to have coffee with the new man sometime, let me know.
I'd love to have my Spanish films back - you can keep the prints if you wish - I'd rather have them reprinted in standard format anyway.
Thinking about you...

Love,
George

From: "bea b" <beablue@hotmail.com>
To: green@start.com.au
Subject: You don't lose time
Date: Fri, 09 Jun 2000 14:35:23 EST

hi
Were you back at rsvp? tell me about it...did you find someone.....or did someone found you........
I dont understand what happen with beablue I have not change it I only aded the nickname Jewell to enter into the chatrooms..I think start is a mess anyway, neither can I receive e-mails
about the coffee offer you know I don't drink it, but I wouldn't mind a tequila[...]
cheers
bea

Instant Message from: Bea B (online)
ArtLover99 I send three of the e-mails from rsvp guess which ones!
9/6/2000 15:23:15

Instant Message from: George G (online)
Very good, I achieved exactly the wanted effect!
9/6/2000 16:45:51

From: green@start.com.au
To: beablue@hotmail.com
Subject: Re: You don't lose time
Date: 6/10/00 1:26:17 AM

Original message from: "bea b" <beablue@hotmail.com>
>
>about the coffee offer you know I don't drink it, but I wouldn't mind a
>tequila

OK. I've still got half a bottle. That should do it...

Cheers,
Georgeo

Instant Message from: George G (online)
What are you doing for the long weekend?
10/6/2000 10:08:26

Instant Message from: Bea B (online)
depends...I haven't decided
10/6/2000 10:59:09

Instant Message from: George G (online)
Good Morning, Bea B! Depends on what?
10/6/2000 11:03:12

Instant Message from: George G (online)
Hi Bea, my Mac is online but I'm out for a walk to get some fresh air... for Tequila please phone...
10/6/2000 15:06:09

Instant Message from: Bea B (online)
I am waiting for your answer to my e-mail
10/6/2000 19:27:30

Instant Message from: George G (online)
What was the question?
10/6/2000 19:28:53

Instant Message from: George G (online)
Start is doing maintenance today... haven't received today's email yet...
10/6/2000 19:31:55

Instant Message from: Bea B (online)
I must go now but I will be back after dinner!
10/6/2000 19:40:01

Instant Message from: George G (online)
Enjoy your meal. Salmon or lamb?
10/6/2000 19:50:49

Instant Message from: George G (online)
I'm going upstairs... looking forward to a nice and warm bed. Haven't received any emails yet but I'll leave the computer online over night. You can call me, if you wish. Otherwise have sweet dreams! Love, George
10/6/2000 21:21:47

Instant Message from: George G (online)
There's an old French movie on at 9.35 on SBS:
'Girl On A Motorcycle' (1968) with Faithfull and Delon.
I think I'm going to watch it. Home alone...
10/6/2000 21:32:03

Instant Message from: George G (online)
The movie was good... tried your mobile: switched off.
No Tequila tonight.
Adios.
10/6/2000 23:09:50

Instant Message from: George G (online)
Good Morning. I think we should stop these "instant" messages as a means of communication. It's frustrating. If you're online only for a few minutes on and off just stick to email every blue moon. Or the phone. Or nothing. Have a good day.
11/6/2000 8:03:38

From: green@start.com.au
To: bea
Subject: Sunday
Date: 6/11/00 9:25:24 AM

"The miracle is not to fly in the air,
or to walk on the water, but to walk on the Earth".
(Chinese proverb)

From: green@start.com.au
To: beablue@start.com.au
Subject: Re: Start.com.au
Date: 6/11/00 9:39:00 AM

Original message from: "bea b" <beablue@hotmail.com>
>
>I dont understand what happen with beablue I have not change it I
>only aded the nickname Jewell to enter into the chatrooms..I think
>start is a mess anyway, neither can I receive e-mails

Well, it seems to work, doesn't it?

Instant Message from: Bea B (online)
you walk up in a good mood today! thank you for the proverb you should have it in view to remember the purpose of being here.....sorry I did not get back in line but I arrived late
11/6/2000 10:07:36

Instant Message from: George G (online)
Good Morning, Bea-Baby-BB...
11/6/2000 10:08:29

Instant Message from: Bea B (online)
by the way I had my mobile with me and it was on.......
I think you could be more direct....ask when you have something in mind I am not a witch!
11/6/2000 10:13:28

Instant Message from: George G (online)
It was my understanding that you'd come around for tequila... maybe I got it wrong?
11/6/2000 10:15:33

Instant Message from: Bea B (online)
you never said when...only sometime ...it could be only a desire or a thought
11/6/2000 10:20:24

Instant Message from: George G (online)
Desires... certainly a lot of thinking... you said you wouldn't mind a tequila and that you hadn't any plans for the weekend... The problem is, I still love you, after all...
11/6/2000 10:24:53

Instant Message from: Bea B (online)
any wishes?
11/6/2000 10:27:29

Instant Message from: George G (online)
Yes. Lots...
11/6/2000 10:28:43

Instant Message from: Bea B (online)
bye for now... you can call me if you want me!
11/6/2000 10:37:07

Instant Message from: George G (online)
Good Morning! (very tired...)
13/6/2000 8:36:20

Instant Message from: Bea B (online)
I went to bed at 3:45 after having dinner!
13/6/2000 10:39:53

Instant Message from: George G (online)
And I got up at 7am... (hungry).
13/6/2000 10:41:18

Instant Message from: Bea B (online)
I enjoyed being with you again
13/6/2000 10:44:29

Instant Message from: George G (online)
Likewise...
13/6/2000 10:45:10

Instant Message from: Bea B (online)
I downloaded the file but I can't open it.......I am leaving.... bye
13/6/2000 10:52:36

Instant Message from: George G (online)
I know, you'd need Microsoft PowerPoint to view it.
Ask him for RTF, TXT (for text) or JPG (for images).
Bye, Baby!
13/6/2000 10:54:52

Instant Message from: George G (online)
Don't spend too much time chatting, Baby!
13/6/2000 17:31:06

From: isadora duncan <beablue@start.com.au>
To: " green@start.com.au" <green@start.com.au>
Subject: you and me
Date: Tue, 13 Jun 2000 17:45:15 +1000

Amor
I have been thinking alot about this weekend and mainly just listening to my heart because I felt so very sad all day today which was surprising since usually after being with you I was in bliss I used to be nurtured and fulfilled and a very strong delicious flavour would be with me.....maybe I should let you go I care for you too much to just be...it is too hard[...]
te quiero
bea

From: green@start.com.au
To: isadora
Subject: you
Date: 6/13/00 7:18:08 PM

Bea-Baby,

Te quiero, too!

Love,
George

Instant Message from: George G (online)
Sweet dreams, mi amor!
15/6/2000 21:41:22

Instant Message from: Bea B (online)
amor I am going out to lunch but will be free around 3:30
would you like to meet?......call me on my mobile
16/6/2000 12:41:29

Instant Message from: George G (online)
Email is coming shortly...
16/6/2000 22:41:36

From: green@start.com.au
To: bea
Subject: For Your Eyes Only
Date: 6/16/00 11:00:23 PM

Amor,

Some things were meant to stay between us, like my poem(s) to you.
They were not written to be published or printed for the kids to read.
Now I understand their strange behaviour...

Than you ask me to speak freely with you in front of Maria, include her in our conversation, when she didn't even want to be here with us in the first place, not saying say hi or goodbye...

I don't blame them... you should have kept 'adult' things between us... they don't understand and it doesn't do good to share everything with them, in a similar way as not even we should talk about 'everything'...

I noticed your face when I mentioned your past experiments... you're not above other people, just one of them... I felt sad and uncomfortable but you're sometimes so stubborn you don't realise it...

I'm sorry... I'd like to see you happy,
but our love is very difficult...

Yes, we will (try to) set each other free!

Love,
George

Instant Message from: Bea B (online)
GG you think that by insulting me you are a better person ? what are you trying to prove....you should be honest with yourself and say what you feel instead of playing cool and getting hurt getting you frustation out in a childish way there are nice ways too of saying what you want without hurting everyone including YOU
16/6/2000 23:01:46

Instant Message from: George G (online)
Just read my email...
16/6/2000 23:05:06

Instant Message from: Bea B (online)
there is no e-mail ....why are you so frighten of direct comunication?
16/6/2000 23:09:16

Instant Message from: George G (online)
hotmail.com... I just needed to say more than a few lines.
16/6/2000 23:13:14

Instant Message from: Bea B (online)
I would like to understand your behavior towards me....why this hate-love feelings? always I am compared against everyone........ and your comments in front of my daughter?
16/6/2000 23:33:08

Instant Message from: George G (online)
I'd like to invite you over for breakfast tomorrow morning if you're free... This isn't really talking...
16/6/2000 23:37:01

From: "bea b" <beablue@hotmail.com>
To: green@start.com.au
Subject:
Date: Fri, 16 Jun 2000 23:28:34 EST

>not above other people, just one of them... I felt sad and
>uncomfortable but you're sometimes so stubborn you don't realise it....
I don't understand what you mean by this!

From: green@start.com.au
To: bea
Subject: Daily Horoscope
Date: 6/19/00 2:18:52 PM

Hi Bea-Baby,

I didn't get the job at Spike in Pyrmont... hopefully tonight's meeting with Jana will bring something... but today's horoscope is interesting:

Pisces (Feb 20-Mar 20)

Last Updated: Sunday, June 18, 2000

Distance yourself. Whatever it is that has to do
with long-range plans you must distance yourself
from the details and try to get perspective on the
larger picture. Certain events or situations may
have happened that can help you find a pattern
that guides you to a better understanding. This
may be in relation to a friend or perhaps an
organization. You should ensure during the next
day or so that you take a moment or two to
examine your personal goals and make sure that
they express your essence and your true desires to
ensure that they are not products of others peoples
wishes, dreams or plans forced upon you. If you
meditate, then use lights through a crystal or a
prism to help your meditation be more focussed.
"Be willing to do what your Soul directs you to do
if you want to create what you are asking for".
(Sanyana Roman).

Love,
Georgeo

Instant Message from: George G (online)
Good Morning, Bea-Baby!
20/6/2000 9:56:05

Instant Message from: Bea B (online)
hola amor, did you sleep well?
20/6/2000 9:58:44

Instant Message from: George G (online)
Yes, I've had sweet dreams... and you?
20/6/2000 9:59:55

Instant Message from: Bea B (online)
I think too much!
20/6/2000 10:03:10

Instant Message from: George G (online)
And did everything become clear now with all the thinking?
20/6/2000 10:08:46

Instant Message from: Bea B (online)
I have to wait for the letter and analize it's contents...meanwhile just wondering
20/6/2000 10:12:50

Instant Message from: George G (online)
What letter? What analysis? You're talking mysteries...
20/6/2000 10:14:28

Instant Message from: Bea B (online)
The letter I told you yesterday He would write to me
20/6/2000 10:18:53

Instant Message from: George G (online)
He?
20/6/2000 10:21:08

Instant Message from: Bea B (online)
mistery???? what did you think I was talking about...
20/6/2000 10:22:54

Instant Message from: George G (online)
Now you got me confused again... the school principal?
20/6/2000 10:25:11

From: green@start.com.au
To: beablue@start.com.au
Subject: Photos
Date: 6/20/00 10:57:07 AM

Bea,

Here they come again.
You need to download them each at one time onto your disk.
Than you can view, open, modify or upload them into whatever.

Happy computing...
Georgeo

Instant Message from: Bea B (online)
be spontaneous and let life take its course, enjoy what you have while its there, simplicity is better than planning too much..... te quiero
21/6/2000 10:33:50

Instant Message from: George G (online)
There was no mail for ArtLover99 from Isadora2000...
21/6/2000 12:15:11

Instant Message from: Bea B (online)
yes there was
21/6/2000 14:44:56

Subject: Us
Date: 22/6/2000 10:14 AM
To: Bea Blue, beablue@hotmail.com

Double Standards

Last night - this morning
showed exactly
what I was talking about:
our incompatibilities
your double standards

I had to have Earl Grey
waiting for you
just in case or maybe
you would stay over one night
after eight months

You on the other hand
didn't care about a coffee maker
I had to bring my own
and when you broke it
I had to get it replaced, too

I left so many mornings
with an empty stomach
passing by your full fridge
you still expected breakfast
with nothing here but bananas

I gave you everything I could give
all my love, so much of my time
my CD player, even my car...
nothing was ever appreciated
nothing was ever noticed

You didn't bother replacing the shirt
ripped off my chest some day
you didn't care about me at all
because you selfishly felt to be
so much richer, better, wiser...

Good bye, amor!

From: used@carsales.com.au
To: green@start.com.au
Subject: carsales Auto Alert
Date: Fri, 23 Jun 2000 00:00:10 +1000 (EST)

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The following AutoAlert was generated by carsales
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MAKE: NISSAN
MODEL: MICRA
YEAR: 1995
TRANS: Manual
LOCATION: Cardiff Toyota
PRICE: $10990
This vehicle can be found at:
http://www.carsales.com.au/usedcar/vehicle.cfm?vehicle_id=162115

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Your details have been removed from the AutoAlert service
http://www.carsales.com.au
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Gerald Ganglbauer artlover & isadora
we met on the net Romance in Cyberspace

Part Two: 2000

Gerald Ganglbauer artlover & isadora we met on the net Romance in Cyberspace

Part Two: 2000

Gerald Ganglbauer artlover & isadora
we met on the net Romance in Cyberspace